So- But- Of Course by Rae Monroe
Lonely midnight oven fries,
Crowded condo and dark beach
Pits hidden in the sand; I fell
(A shark nibbled the silver ring
On my right pinky toe)
And I could say I was trapped and hurting
And I could argue that I was alone
And I could say the monster who laid me down beside you
Was to blame,
but wasn’t it also
Me yanking a puppy, snapping at it
Me pushing loves away, turning off emotions
Me shoving myself into my mother’s womb,
Claiming to belong, so—but—of course
It’s like I was begging, screaming for it, so—but—of course
I need you to put your hand right here,
In the deepest part of me
And tell me not to be scared
So—but—of course
Rae Monroe (she/her) was born in Mississippi but grew up around the world. Her work has been published in multiple journals.